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When I’m trying to be healthy I buy the most aggressively coloured cold pressed juice I can find... then I drink a quarter of it... don’t like it... put it back in the fridge... then dispose of it a few days later while my husband is at work so he thinks I drank the $12 juice. 🤷🏼‍♀️ and that’s how I get healthy! #promomtip
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NEW BLOGPOST 📝 (LINK IN BIO): This week I wrote about “Momposter Syndrome” which is characterized by feelings of inadequacy with regard to being a Mom. ‘Momposters‘ suffer from chronic self-doubt, comparison to others, and they fear judgement. These feelings override any feelings of confidence, success, or real-life proof that they are a badass Mom.“ 🧟‍♀️ I made this term up but I think it’s legit!!! ..................................................
What makes you feel like a Momposter???
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NEW BLOGPOST 📝 (LINK IN...

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I recently finished the entire series of Southern Charm! Oh what joy that show brought me. I’m going to miss @camwimberly1 and her bang-on sarcastic mom-talk. Until next season! 📺
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I’m trying to boost my productivity during the days lately. It is so hard for me to NOT do laundry and clean bathrooms, etc. all day. Then I look at the clock and it’s 2pm and I’m like “where the F did the day go!?!” So, for the next little while, until my dissertation is officially submitted (deadline Dec. 20), this house will be dirty and messy... and I don’t care who knows if!!! 🐖 ————————————-
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“LET HIM CRY!” – My honest thoughts and experiences with crying it out

I am going to preface this blog post by saying that we have been on both sides of the crying it out debate. My husband and I coddled the sh*t out of our son, Milo, every time he woke up (3-4 times a night) for MONTHS. We’ve also let him cry several times. Currently, we are in between the crying and coddling. It’s very confusing but it works for us… for now. I like to think of it as taking it “one cry at a time”. As a Mom, I know parents avoid talking about this topic because it makes everyone uncomfortable. So obviously I’m going to write about it! No one wants to admit they let their babe cry because they don’t know how the person they’re talking to is going to receive that little tidbit of information. They will either be like “us too, been sleeping through the night ever since!!” ***gives enthusiastic high-five to other parent*** Or, they’ll be like “oh, we could never do that!” ***gives a sad face with their hand over their heart shaking their head***

As a part of my PhD program, I was trained in Attachment Theory. If you don’t know what that is, let me explain it here briefly. Attachment Theory explains the emotional bond that develops between an infant and primary caregiver. It also explains how this bond affects the behavioural and emotional development of that infant throughout their lifetime. This attachment, or emotional bond, can also exist between partners (romantic attachment) or between any two individuals (that is, if the relationship warrants an emotional bond). For the purposes of this blog post, I am only referring to the attachment between infant and caregiver. In infancy, the primary caregivers are the baby’s “safe place”. The emotional bond is developed based on how the caregiver responds to the baby when they are hurt, perceive a threat, are upset, need their caregiver’s comfort, whatever it may be. Long story short, leaving a babe to cry is quite unbecoming in the eyes of attachment theorists because you are not responding to their need in that moment. They need something and you’re not responding. That is a no-no. So, this theory has been drilled into my head. Which leads me to my initial thoughts on the whole crying it out thing.

At some point in time the idea that babies didn’t need their caregivers overnight became a thing.

Before we had Milo I was definitely the one gasping and shaking their head at the idea of letting a babe cry. I am willing to bet that if you’re human, you don’t like the sound of a babe crying. You probably can’t stand the sound of a dog crying either. Anything crying! Nobody wants to hear it. It’s horrible. Your first instinct will likely be to try and calm or help a babe in distress. That’s how humans survive. The baby cries and you give it what it needs. Whether that be food, diaper change, warmer clothes, cooler clothes, comfort, etc. At some point in time the idea that babies didn’t need their caregivers overnight became a thing. Once they physically did not need milk overnight, caregivers could decide whether they wanted to respond to the cries or not. I’d guess that this became a thing around the time that it was common, and almost expected, that both parents work full-time jobs outside the home. To this day I still think that sleep training and/or the “cry it out” method came about so the baby’s sleep schedule would be more convenient and conducive to the caregivers’ lifestyle. But, of course, they market sleep training and/or crying it out as somehow beneficial for the baby. “Oh, they’re learning to self soothe.” I call bullish*t on that. The best is when proponents of sleep training suggest that your child will not be able to sleep well on their own if you always go soothe them when they cry. That one almost got me. As for not physically needing milk, I say, why does crying for the comfort or touch of the caregiver (safe place) not count all of a sudden when it’s the middle of the night? The most heartbreaking thing I read with regard to letting a baby cry it out is that they are not learning to self soothe. They are learning that you are not going to respond to their cries. So, they just don’t cry. Heart. Crushed.

So, we hadn’t even been parents for 24 hours and the nurse was basically telling us we f*cked up. I felt horrible. Like Jesus, we didn’t feed our baby!

Our experience with sleeping (or not sleeping) with our little hunny, Milo, went something like this. Let’s take it back to night one. Milo was born around 8pm.  That night in the hospital Milo slept right through. No joke. My husband slept on a little chair/couch thingy and I was in the hospital bed. I remember waking up confused and looking at my phone to see the time. IT WAS MORNING. The nurse came in shortly after and made a comment about how quiet our room was all night. We told her that we all just slept. She looked a little concerned and said “oh, you should have woke him up every few hours to feed him!” Well shit! I honestly just assumed Milo would wake up throughout the night and I’d breastfeed. It’s not like we set an alarm to wake up. He’s a baby. They cry all night, don’t they? The last thing I expected to happen was for us to sleep through the night. We hadn’t even been parents for 24 hours and the nurse was basically telling us we f*cked up. I felt horrible. Like Jesus, we didn’t feed our baby! Anyways, Milo was fine and I got a full nights sleep after giving birth. Can’t complain.

Fast forward to the first couple months at home. Milo was waking up regularly overnight (probably every 3 hours or so). Based on what all the books and blogs told us, this was normal. We would change his diaper when he woke up and then feed him. He would fall asleep while he ate and we’d place him back in his bassinet until he woke up again a few hours later. Pretty typical baby stuff. Fast forward to a few months after that. Milo was now 6 months old, sleeping in his crib in his room, and still waking up every 3-4 hours. We stopped changing his diaper at this age because if we did he would get cranky AF. So, when he woke up fussing or crying, we’d give him a bottle in the rocking chair and he’d fall back asleep in our arms. Like a ninja, we’d lay him back down in the crib. This overnight routine continued for months. We were up multiple times a night, every night. We had decided early on that neither of us were comfortable letting him cry and that we would just continue to get up with him until he slept through the night on his own. My husband and I took turns sleeping downstairs in the guest room (I know some people are probably horrified at this) so that at least one of us had a good sleep every night. Not gonna lie, it was usually me sleeping in the guest room. I was no longer breastfeeding (that’s a whole other topic to write about, stay tuned). My husband is a physician and has the wonderful gift of being able to fall asleep in an instant. Years of getting phone calls in the middle of the night, or having to go see a patient at ungodly hours had really prepared him for these nights with Milo. I’m a lucky gal.

Like most Moms I’m sure, over the course of these months, I felt like every other baby on the planet started sleeping through the night at 4 months old. What the hell was wrong with my child? I started to believe the sleep training people and thought Milo would be 13 years old and waking up 3-4 times a night wanting to see us. Around 8 months old I remember trying to let him cry once. It was for his first wake up of the night (around 10pm). He cried about 15 minutes and I was crying in our room. My husband was out in the living room and eventually went in to see Milo. I remember thinking, how is this right? How is letting Milo cry a good thing? He’s crying, I’m crying. I was pissed I even tried to let him cry and then we decided again that we just couldn’t go that route. In a weird way I was jealous of parents who were able to let their babes cry for a couple nights and were enjoying full nights of sleep ever since. Isn’t that strange? Like, ugh, I wish I could let my baby cry, dammit!

When I texted her saying he had woken up and was crying, she responded “LET HIM CRY!!!” Cut throat, I know. But I needed that in that moment.

Fast forward to 11 months old. Milo was still waking up 2-4 times a night. Some nights were better than others. I remember trying to find comments from other parents on Facebook pages or blog posts that their child was also waking up 3-4 times a night. I read sleep training guides to see what that was all about. When he started a horrible phase where he was crying and not wanting to go to sleep until 10pm every night, I started to entertain the idea of letting him cry again. This sh*t was crazy. Was he f*cking with us? Was he at the age now where he was manipulating us? I remember one evening, I was texting with a friend of mine, explaining Milo’s sleeping (or lack there-of) situation. She has two young boys and had let them cry for three nights. They had been sleeping through the night like angels ever since (of course). Mid-conversation, Milo started crying and I knew the whole ” clusterf*ck bedtime situation” was about to play out again. It’s exhausting. When I texted her saying he had woken up and was crying at 7:30pm, she responded “LET HIM CRY!!!!!” Cut throat, I know, but I needed that in that moment. My husband and I decided in that moment that we were going to do it. The 7:30pm cry was only 7 minutes long. I felt like “wow, that wasn’t so bad”.

Cut to 10:30pm. I’m in the shower (so I can’t hear Milo cry – doesn’t that just sound horrible?) while my husband watches the monitor. Milo cried for 25 minutes. Later that same night, Milo cried on and off between 3am and 4am, and then slept soundly from 4am to 8am. On night two, Milo fussed a few times between 8pm and 9pm, cried on and off between 2am and 3am, and then slept soundly till 7:45am. On night three, Milo slept from 7:30pm to 7:30am. My husband and I were in shock when we woke up in the morning and hadn’t heard a peep. So, yay for Milo sleeping through the night, but I was scared that we hurt him somehow by not responding to his cries. The best thing my friend said to me during these nights was that Milo will still love me just as much in the morning as he did when he went to bed. I loved hearing that, and she was right.

Milo is just over 13 months now and has been sleeping through the night ever since those two difficult nights. Of course there has been the odd night here and there that hasn’t been perfect. Many have been when he was sick for a couple weeks (daycare germs) and would wake up coughing. One benefit to having a babe that sleeps through the night is that when they do wake up, you are able to gauge whether it is just a fuss/half asleep type cry, or they really need comfort. We’ve had a few nights where I could tell Milo was upset and I brought him into our bed to lay with me and when he was ready I brought him back to his crib. Maybe he had a nightmare, who knows? Sometimes he would cry when I brought him back, but it would last for seconds and he would pass out. So, as I said perviously, we are now in between crying it out and coddling and I feel pretty good about it.

Do what feels right for you and your babe. If it doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t.

To finish I will say that every parent I have spoken to has had a different experience with their babe and sleeping through the night. I know some parents who started crying it out at 4 months. Some started at 8 months. Some had a lot of patience and practiced crazy sleep training methods that required them to go in and out of the babes room 900 times a night. Some have co-slept with their babe since day 1 and continue to do so. Do I think any of these parents love their child any more or less than any other parents? No. Not at all.

XOXO Renee Reina

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